This afternoon, for the first time in ~8 months, I was able to be outside comfortably without sunglasses. I'm not advocating spending time outside sans sunglasses on a regular basis, but I've been having to put them on even just to bring the mail in, so this is significant. Also, for the first time in ~8 months, I was able to cook without shutting the kitchen blinds. I was even able to look out the window while I rinsed the dishes this afternoon. It seems like such a mundane thing but I consider it a big victory.
My vision doesn't seem as "milky" as it once did. It's nowhere near back to normal, but when I think of how awful it was and how hopeless I felt 6 or 8 months ago, I can tell there's been improvement. It seems like I'm noticing improvement all at once. Maybe it's because I've finally managed to stop obsessing over my vision all day every day, so now when I do evaluate it, the changes are more noticeable. Or maybe it's because the amount of steroid eyedrops I take was recently reduced. Whatever the reason is, I'll take it!
These days, I'm still far from satisfied with my vision, particularly at night. I'm also no longer distraught and am getting on with life. I was recently advised again that surgery likely isn't an option for me. I was told that my scar is fairly deep, but that I can ask the ophthalmologist who initially treated me for his opinion regarding surgery. I feel I've had all the bad news I can handle for the time being. I'm going to give my cornea more time to heal and may make an appointment sometime down the road.
For now, I'm just trying to be patient. When this first happened I didn't know how I'd ever live with it. I'm in a much better place now; sometimes it's amazing what a little time can do.
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